My head is spining again =(

Haih.....I really dunno what to do now la.....You know me and him...But yea.....Dont ask me why I jump here and ther I am juz typing watever is in my brain la...=)Kay lets start.....He know that I am deeply in love him edi and people thought that we are together....I meant itz not wrong la to think like that ah..But I do really hope that we both are together but I always think this will he love/like me as much as I do towards him...I meant if he dosent itz okay la cause love cant be force rite...But we can still stay as friends rite even though we are not together mah...But yesterday I was thinking what Dana told me bout him la.....I kinda agree la........And Darsh told me this thing la I feel dam piss at her for awhile only.....She told me this la....the guys will think that you are very cheap'CHEAP' and I cant believe she say that face to face you know..Imagine I say that to one of you wont you feel dam piss rite...Darsh I know that you are trying to advice me la but you dont la until go give that type of advice do you realize that the word is like a knife to me setan you...So what if he or the guys thinks that I am cheap la cause itz my love life not yours rite!!!??Well itz me that is inlove with him rite?I meant I am not marahing you here but I am just saying la......So yea...................I seriously dont know what to do now la....Cause my head is spining again=(and to you Marcus I really love you but itz okay if you dont la...Cause I got the feeling and itz not that I dont want you to like me/love me la....And I am not i down confidence just feel like saying it...Bye people