I'm done believing you

Hey people sorry but I'm abit emo here,again..
I feel bad being emo here but this is my only place that I spill everything here=)
Well currently hearing this song tittle Listen by Beyonce
Its freaking awesome and meaningful
By the way I shall start
Kay I really really don't know what is wrong now.
He's not talking to me at all it started like this week or maybe last week.
Message him never reply maybe no credit kay
Then msn???Busy okay.But at least tell la.
I mean if you don't wanna talk to me I'm fine at least tell me then I will not disturb you anymore!
Well I don't even think so that you understand or even trying to understand me
You never know how much that you have hurt me...You drag it on and on and you never notice at all...
Busy?I understand..Out?I understand
But sometimes I feel when I'm talking to you I feel like I'm talking to a wall,myself,or maybe to a door!You never
knew!!Sometimes I'm just so sick and tired of it.

Anyways here's the lyrics for listen

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own

Taggeh number 3

6 things that make me happy :D

1)Being with my crazy adorable friends <3 style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">2)Dancing and Singing
3)Going out and shopping
4)Attending church and mass
5)Family
6)Watching movie's=)

Somewhere Over The Rainbow,Skies are blue

Hey guess what?! I am so gonna fulnk my maths paper once again since I screw my paper and my tuttion teacher is gonna screw me too!!!
Great just great!!
And for my GEO!!AHAHAHAH!!I dam smart I keep doing stupid mistakes and I'm gonna die also!
And Moral was kacang putih as usual!!!
Btw to Puan X!Both of us did not copy or whatsoever!kay!I was yawning and taking my panadol out from my pocket lying down the table!
And She was doing her paper and looking outside and just giving me a smile!!!Get it right!

If This Isnt Love,Then What Is It?

Kay I know my blog quite dead at times,Sorry la..
Anyways I think I am sick!!!!Cause my headache is not a normal ordinary headache,
It seriously hurts man it feels like a bomb just fell on top of your head...
And I cough like some backside!....
And all this happen on the exam week!
Dam it la!!!
Never mind I shall feel better after taking lotsa panadol's
Bye!

The Time Has Come For My Dreams To Be Heard

I know that I should be studying by now =.=

But after I blog I shall go study kay?
Well today is not that fun as these past few days!
And exam is like what next Tuesday and I haven't
Touch my book at all?
See how bad am I and I can still sembang here and there all.
Well today most of them never come to school and my class is like so quite =.=
So yeah Darshini and Dana did not come to school today so me,Mitra,Sai and Tanu only came =.=
Dam potong rite????
So yeah Science we did some questions and then recess then Moral nothing and Sejarah Kala did not come up
So it was Kh dam suckish weh
All the ants started coming up my body all
dam geli and annoying!!!
So yeah...
See dam boring rite my day?
And my blog is like what?Dam blady cacated and potong and boring!
So yeah loh

I miss you!
cant wait!

Life Is Amazed And Love Is A Riddle

Guess what?We have just created our own family tree!
Here are the people's

Daddy=Crystal
Mummy=Dana
Eldest Son=Me =)
First Daughter=Claudia
Second Daughter=Darshini
Third Daughter=Sammi
Fourth Daughter=Mitra
Daddy's Elder Brother=Tanu
Mummy's Sister=Mei Kuan
Granny=Aiman
Grandpa=Nadirah!

So yeah that was our family tree=)
Oh by the our class we have one trade mark!
1 step to heaven=all points up
Damm funny man!!

Shut Up Shut Up I Dont Wanna Hear You

This post is dedicated to some one who likes to intefer in my private life=)
I am not mad at you I just wanna clear things up,Cause I think neither me or him should be treated in this way
First thing,
Me and him are not together we are just good friends=)
Second thing
I admit that I like him but now it dosen't matter anymore,
Third thing,
I don't even give a dam if someone likes him,Cause I know its not my love life its hers right?
Fourth thing,
Stop saying that me and him are lying,We are telling you both the truth and its your problem if you don't wanna believe us kay?
Lastly this is very important!
Just stop saying that we are together cause we are NOT NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Get it?!and stop asking that particular question again would you?
Maybe you don't feel irritated when you keep on asking that particular question
But both of us feel irritated kay?

~~Thanks hope that you read this post~~

To The Song Here My Heart,A Melody That I Have Start

Today is a normal ordinary day for me except for extra laughters in the AV room=)
Went to school around 8 or 9 something,Did my Sejarah work which until now is still not complete =P
Hang out with Dini and Dana
Then jump to Sharence follow by Mitra....=)
Then talk to her and did my work skip Karate!How smart I was?
Anyways Tanu and Darsh-he arrived then talk and eat
I was eating sea wheat =)!Taste dam blady good man!Then tanu me mitra and dars-he was talking bout the Tsunami again!So yeah talk talk then school started went to the caunseling room and then teacher receive a call from Pn.Hong I think?So she went and see her
So since teacher wasant there we used the comp =)
We went to youtube,facebook and Crystal's blog until the period was over =(
Went back to class study Science and Bm
Went for recess then ran to AV room for English=)
Then my group we did this acting in the AV room and the theme/tittle was The Phantom Of The Oprah!
So I was Raoul,Tanu was Phillipe,Darsh was Meg,Erra was Monseiur Firmin,Nateeyaa was Mounseir Armand and lastly Dana was the storry teller!
I coudnt stop laughing the whole entire time!hahahahahah the play was dam funny until I cant even stop laughing
So yeah after was maths then I and Tanu walk together then we saw Darsh infront
Me Tanu

Eh Darsh infront la
So?
Now maths time la
So??
Maths la dei!
Oh yeah hoh

So me,crystal and Tanu started running then I was at the back of Darsh!
She saw me she also started running!
So the 4 of us were running like mad!!!Dam funny weh!!!!!
So yeah Then sejarah and geo
Geo was fun man!!!
So yeah thats it! Bye

Dont Trust Her

A typicall ordinary day begins the story,
When for tuition then walk to school with
Tanu and Vani saw Mitra outside school then she teman us walk in the school,
Saw Christal in school makan and started talking crap
Was talking bout what if Tsunami;s come?
Where are we going to go?
Tanu as you know give her most brilliant idea..She say she will go to Mid-Valley with all of us then watch movie..
Then I said we can watch movie in the ocean what?
Sorry was talking crap at there and we begin to crap at therre and started laughing like mad
Then I say why not we go to Paris and climb the Eiffel tower?
And apparently they agree?
So yeah went back to class did nothing and the in recess makan all went back up did nothing for Maths and Geo so we
Lepak in class,Then BM study a bit and English did nothing
So basically today we did nothing
Bye

If I Were The Boss.

JJ and Ean..If I were the Boss

If i were the Boss,
Even just for a day, (one time only man)
I would change the station name from hitz to radio Ean And JJ...

If i were the boss,
Work would start on tuesday...
We will end the week on thursday,
and Everyday will be Halfday....

If i were the boss,
I think i could understand....
I'll refuse to work a margin,
and give a raise of 20 cents....

Hang out with the girls,,,
and be hard on the guys..
My despatch be riding harleys,
Our trips will be to Bali
if we bankrupt
i will break down and cry..

If i were the boss,
i will come up with a plan..
Make everyone do all the work,
take the credit and look like the man..

If i were the boss,
My lunch break would be 2 days
I'll have ps3 in my room,
200 inch LCD and play all day, MY WAY..JJ~~~

If i were the boss,
I think i could understand....
I'll refuse to work a margin,
and give a raise of 20 cents....

Hang out with the girls,,,
and be hard on the guys..
My despatch be riding harleys,
Our trips will be to Bali
if we bankrupt
i will break down and cry..

Cos i'll always come in late,
to show who i am,
and if i was a girl, i'll make them call me man...
if you thought i'd be nicer, then you thought wrong~~~~

But we are not the boss,
so we canot CUTI*...
come to office really early,
to try to make some money,
So we can open stall jual nasi (goreng, pataya, kandar, lemak...what else a? dagang)

I Hate This Part Right Here

Sorry for the emo post here...
I shall begin
If I could repeat again what happen between me for loving you I will replay it back I know it was my mistake for telling you for how much I love you.... Its not that I regret for loving you and telling you that I love you Its about my stupidity for continuing for loving Its not gonna bring any changes I dont mind being friends with you But sometimes when I think bout it makes me cry and knowing that you will not loved me back.. Tell me what should I do I have tried many ways to forget my love for you but it never goes away My heart says NO!!!!!!!!He will say Yes! But my mind and soul knows that is not true! Teach me and make me realize that I was not meant for you... Wake up Eli!
Done!
Sorry yeah just feel like lepasing my emo now

They Take You By The Hand,And Show That You Can.

Nobody is at home now except me..
Home alone and I am dead bored man!!!!!
Save me!
Wanted to go out with friends but go no one to pakat.!
Dam bored la
Somemore nobody online-ing now!
Bye!!!!!!!

Everything Is Gonna Be Alright When You Are Right Here By My Side.

I am so dead tired man its more then 12 hours I am out from the house
Went for tuition from 8-10 am then went to school and study from 10 plus-5.00 pm
Went back with Tanu to her place o clean myself up all then went back at school again bout 6.40-10.20 pm
for Lit Night.....
GOD!The opening and the finale was nice but the show's were like boleh tahan la....
Dana came along with us then Sai came....
Watch watch watch....Dead hungry cause never ate anything since morning the only thing I ate was
4 fried stuff only and drink water
So that is my only meal,Recess I skip and Lunch I also skip...Wasn't that hungry...
Came back started eating like a big fat pig!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gahhhhhhhhhh.....
Oh yeah
Saw Kane,Mayuri,Mushroom(Tengku),Arisha,Francesca,And other big big seniors and guys...Which I only know some(;
So as you can see I got no proper meal and enough rest at all!!
And some more I might have to go down to MALACCA!
Dam rite!!! Haih dam tired !
Wanna go to sleep and I need lotsa rest
BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank You For The Cross

!I LOVE ALL OF YOU SO DAM MUCH!
To everyone who wish me happy birthday to me today!
THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!!!!
Epically to all of my friends!!!!!!
Mitra,Tanu,Darsh,Dana,Kane,Marcus the whole entire class of 2C3!
I love you all so much 3>!!
Today is such a fun day man!!
Bye!

I Wanna Take A Ride On My Disco Stick

Okay today KANE came to school!!
Dam happy cause so long I never see her!
She looks very very different seriously different!
Kay today went for Karate did karate stuff then lepak in class doing stars! Cause we got nothing better to do!
Gagagagag!!!!Then Science study study study!
Then Bm!Didnt give a dam bout it......
Then recess that is went I saw KANE!!!
Talk to her for the whole entire recess time.....
Then ran back up took my pencil box and ran down back and guess what?
I drop a few stars!!;(
Dam sad la! I so susah susah do some more!!!
Then I told her that I will see her in awhile but I didnt
So sorry KANE!!!!!Then studied English was half boring half fun
And after the lesson me and Dana kena called by teacher
I thought we are going to kena marah cause we were doing stars at there
But tengok tengok tteacher started asking us bout how is her teaching and she say me and Dana is very good in English!!
Ahahahahahah
But the teacher is nice and a lil boring sorry cher!
Then was maths did nothing and started doing the stars again and Pn.Norhidayah give us to see her weding foto!
She looks dam pretty!
So after that was Sejarah!
Kala ask us to hafal from page 13something to 141 dam alot man!!
And some more bentang on this friday!
Dam mother man!
And after that was Geo!
Had fun!!!Lotsa funnnn!!! And I made a small star for Tanu!
And I am gonna make somemore to my close friends!!!Including my form 3 friends!!
Kay thats bout it !
BYE!!! OOOO
Tomorrow is my birthday!!!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Cant wait man!!
AND SORRY KANE!!! SEE YOU THIS FRIDAY!!Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Cant wait for this friday cause got lit night!!! Weeeeeeeeee!
Bye!

Man In The Mirror.

I know that m blog is like dead...dead....
What am I suppose to do I dam lazy to update and some more the amount of homework's in my room now
is like climbing up the mountain XD!!
Okay this is what I notice this week...
We did alot of laughing I mean alot means seriously alot alot!!!
And I dam happy weh
You wanna know why?
Because my birthday is this Thursday!!! Cannot wait!!
And our school is having Literary Night this Saturday!!!
I might be going....
I so dam blady wanna go man!!!!! Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I miss Mitra! Sudah 2 days never datang school!=.= gagagagagahhhh!!!!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Dam hyper now!!!! Cannot wait to kill some karate members who are not coming tomorrow for karate!! Muahahahah I sound dam mean!!! Whatever man!!!! Bye!!!!!

With Arms Wide Open

Hello fellow readers!,Well today nothing much happen la
Not happening at all just the plain old Saturday
Kay woke up and watch teve and then hmmm....
Oh yea lepak eat all
Then I became so rajinted and started cleaning the whole entire house and fold the clothes,
Quite tired la
Then play comp,watch teevee and then cook and then umm......
Eat dinner,
Message him(;tak reply;(
then watch teevee with my parents they watch this oldie Chinese drama for
4 blady long hours la..
Dam boring and now I am still bored wanna go out but they dont wanna bring me out!
geee
Need to sleep cause gotta go for mass(:
Byeee!
Love you people

Bille Jean,Its Not My Lover

Owh well today I can considered is one of the most happiest day in my life!,
Many things happen in school today
What ever happen today it seems to make me happy,
Went for tuition I thought that the teacher is gonna screw me for not finishing my maths work
Well lucky me teacher ask us to pass up the work after the examination is over(:
And had lotsa fun with my crazy-cute-adorable friends(;
They made me go boowhoo!
And guess who I saw?
I saw the girl that I used to like in school I went crazy and started blushing like mad!
Mitra and the rest of them we laughing =.=
But I gotta admit that she memang dam cute la!
Then head back to class and started talking with them
And Crystal told us what happen between her and Claudia
And finally they are normal back again(:
And during Sejarah Kala did not come to class(:
That 1 I lagi happy la!
Then it was KH period as usual I was thinking like the same old boring lesson
But today was fun!
We this thing that was something bout electricity
Had fun playing with the tools and I was playing with this thing the 'pateri' la
Or something like that....

Geez dam fun today and yesterday aiyah the whole entire week was fun like mad
Gah wish every week is like this!!
Haih,I feel like I am missing that "someone" Come back to school aite?
Dam but I am not falling for her la...
Bye,and oh Imydfm now la!Ilydfm also!
Haih dunno what is wrong with me!
Ah shaddap eli!
Bye

Cause My World Revolves Around You

Sheltox is currently killing me!
No Air to breath la...
Stupid mosquitoes why you like to kacau me when I'm sleeping?
See now you suffer and I suffer
All your fault la
Backside itchy la you!
Go die!
No not me
BUTTTTT
The MOSQUITOES!

If Today Was Your Last Day,Then Tomorrow Is To Late.

I wanna watch MJ's funeral tonight!!
Cant wait man!!
Anywho today was a fun day
Most teacher did not come to school(;
Yeeeeeepieeeeeee
So yeah loh Buat buat bodoh at school only la!
lalalalalala
Dam hyper now!!
Geez
Cannot wait for tomorrow to kill all the karate members
Cause who ask them not to come?
You ownself cari pasal rite????
Haih
Imissyoudamfuckingmuchla!!!!!
Stupid Eli!!
Ahhhahahahah
I know that I never open my mouth infront of you before but
Iloveyouandsayangyoubayakbanyakgilaman!
Bye!!!!!!
Wanna eat then I go bath!!
Bye!!!!!!!!

My Jesus,My Saviour,Lord There Is None Like You

Nothing happen much today in school thanks to "some people"that say they wanna come to school but in the end

they never come...
Dam smart rite
Mitra I so wanna kill you now!Thanks for making me coming to school early today!
So only Me,Tanu and Dana came!
And we just buat buat bodoh in class la =.=
Dam boring
But now I dunno why I so semangated hearing worshiped songs!
It feels better when I heard these worship songs(:
Ohohoh
Guess what?!!
I am so in love with Tom Wellington a.k.a CLARK KENT!!!!!!
From Smallville!
He dam blady cute weh!!
*Drools*

Boom Boom Pow!

Its still early what should I post about?
Got nothing la
Geez
Dam boring la!!
Bye!

There's Always Another Mountain,I'm Always Wanna Make It Move

Kay people my emoing section is over
Sorry cause you all gotta tahan la
Anyways back from Malacca earlier then I expected
But for the first time I feel bored at there
Maybe its due to my granduncle condition
He's in the ICU ward
For some reason la which I'm not suppose to open my mouth bout it
My aunts and grandaunts are crying and so does my dad
My dad emo emo abit one la
Kay then I dunno what happen la
What I know after was my granduncle woke up from the long sleeping hours!!!!!!
THANK YOU GOD!I LOVE YOU SO MUCH GOD!!
End of story
Oh yea I feel like killing 3 bitches now
epically that bitch ops correction SLUT!Thats more I prefer it
that go manipulating someones brain and I really thank you for bitching bout me and calling me a bitch,and fucker and ask me to fuck off
Cause I really wanna know if you are a bitch or what?
But after do some research bout that particular for so long
Look this is what I found!
She is a smelly slut(Cause she got nothing better to do everytime until can go bitch bout me alot),Fucking real pain in the ass and likes to call people fucker!
Isn't that interesting!
Too me is dam interesting!
Oh thank for making someone too not talk too me!
That 1 I don't really care la
And thank you for giving me every time a big bitch stare
I know la you really cannot tahan me
But nobody is asking you to tahan me rite?
You think we all can tahan you?
Please la I rather die then seeing you everyday in school la!
And to the another 2 more bitches
Kay to the K bitch!
Wanna make me jealous by saying that person name in front of me?
HELLO!PLEASE OPEN YOUR EYES BIGGER LA!I KNOW YOU GOT VERY HUGE EYES BUT MAKE IT BIGGER!!
I wont get jealous very fast like last time la
please open you brain bigger!
And to the S bitch
Eh dam obvious that you like the feller la!
You wanna earn that person learn first before that go learn bout your ABC and 123 first kay?
Then baru you come and talk big here
And before that if you wanna earn that person its not that easy like you eating kacang putih kay?
Earn it by the grown up way kay?
Haih feel so much better bow after bitching bout that 3 person
Cause who ask them to bitch bout me?
For me you bitch bout me until I lose my patience this is what you will get!
Kay bye people!
Love you lots!

Give Anything But I Wont Give Up

Kay people wont be here until I come back on sunday
Cause I will be in malacca for some reason la
By the way will miss you guys all
And this is what my name means

E - has gorgeous eyes

L - is a very good kisser

I - is really sweet & romantic

S - makes people laugh

A - crazy

B - loves people and sex

E - has gorgeous eyes

T - a smile to die for

H - stick to one

-

C - selfish

H - stick to one

A - crazy

N - is a very good kisser too!

-

S - makes people laugh

Z - very broad minded

E - has gorgeous eyes

-

Y - is loved by everyone

A - crazy

R - funny

Only Faith Can Decide It

Kay I seriously dont know what is happening right now in my life
It feels like I have been pushed everywhere by the crowd
Is it me or him and her?
I just discover that
I have been failing for her more and more each there
and he is like acting different to me.
I feel like crying every time
But those tears never comes out....
Sigh
I feel like
I am stuck in a ocean with no one around me,
Only the ocean water and the creatures under the sea.
Things are playing in my mind
I'm mix with full of emotion's
Things are no going that fine and good as I expected and
IMY AND ILY those 2 like mad!!!!!
Geez!!
And this blog is like
the only place that I can cry on and have fun with it
(kay that sounds wrong)
But yeah

Kau tahu bertapa ku sayang pada mu,
Hanya bidadari sebagaai ganti

Dont Tell Me That I Ran Out Of Time(:

I think I accidentally love you more then I expected(: